I have always dreamed of being a celebrity or famous, no, i think all i wanted to be is a writer, once a friend told me that i can be anything i want to be, just if i believed in my self and believe i can do anything, no matter how hard it looks, all i have to do or all it takes is just a try and if i failed, there is nothing to be ashamed of and there is no shame in trying again and again, until i get it and learn to do it right from my own mistakes. I always thought of tomorrow more than today or yesterday, like there is nothing, except for the future!
All my life, i just thought about tomrrow, how is it going to be like?, what am i going to be after ten years or more? , will i be a wife and a mother??, How many kids am i going to have and how am i going to raise them??, will i have a great job and a great Future!! or will i be another woman, no more!!
I dont know what to say more?! .. I have so many ideas and dreams in my head and i have no idea where or how to start again.. its so strange.. YOU KNOW.. DONT YOU?!
I want to do many things in my life or with my life, but i wish to know how and which road to take?! I Became so lazy!!BUT still i think all the time, every second, minute, hour, day and night that passes me by. My mind is like a river that can not be stopped from flowing.. i dont have a rock to make it stop flowing and no body has the ability to cross it. THEN WHAT DO ??! just tell me.. answer me?! i need your answer to survive from this thing, that even i dont know what to call it or what do about it?? ITS hard when you dont know the answer to your own question and it drives you crazy.. doesnt it?? But in the same time it makes you think and wonder??!!
THEN, please when you dont know the answer just do what i do..
THINK AND WONDER??!! and maybe you will find the answer that you seek to know .. like i did!